Life Update/I Really Miss Blogging

Hi, long time no see! I like really, really, really miss blogging and just writing in general. I have been a terrible slacker for such a long time and I am sick of it!! I know this sounds super cliche but I really feel closer to God when I am actively blogging with a schedule. This blog is like bible journaling on steroids for me. I still am bible journaling/studying, but this platform allows me to really expand on the topics that I feel called to speak on and share those thoughts with whomever wants to read them.

I would love to say that my life has just been way too busy and that now it is slowing down and I can finally get back into blogging regularly — but that is not *entirely* true. My life has been a bit busier than usual. (i.e. moving into a brand new home that I love with my whole heart, starting a new 16 hour semester, and babysitting almost constantly) I’m settling into this new fast-paced normal, though, and I am trying to figure out a good schedule for blogging and just making time in my week to write and post. I love blogging SO MUCH and I genuinely miss it when I take a break. This break, though, was so ridiculous honestly. I feel embarrassed that its been that long since I’ve sat down and actually written my pure thoughts.

On top of being simply busy, I have also had a major case of writer’s block. Finding things/topics that inspire me enough to write a full-length (or what I consider to be full-length) blog post has been a challenge for me. I figure that by just forcing myself to sit down and write, something will come of it. Right? I sure hope so.

Anyways, this was just supposed to be a quick update/I’m back to writing blog post…. So with that, look forward to more blog posts, I look forward to writing them!!!! Get ready for a new and improved blog & while you’re here, go ahead and read some of my other posts. I will link my favs below just for you! Haha. Thank you for spending a little bit of your day, or night, with me.

My Top Favorite Blog Posts –

My Testimony/My “Finding Faith” Story

Should Wives Submit to Their Husbands?

To Anyone Waiting for Marriage

A Letter to My Future Husband

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Life Update/I Really Miss Blogging

My Favorite Quotes + Why

I’m just going to quickly preface this by saying that these are not in order from my most to least favorite. I don’t think it really matters anyway. I just wanted to say that. LOL okay… I sincerely hope you enjoy.

  1. “Grow through what you go through” — I really, really love this quote (obviously, it made it on the list) I don’t know who said this, however, but I came across it on Pinterest and I have remembered it since. It’s pretty self explanatory and I just think its a good and easy thing to keep in mind through life.
  2. “I’m going to make everything around me beautiful – that will be my life.” – Elsie de Wolfe — This is so, so important to me. I truly believe that your quality of life depends on your outlook on your life you have and not on the conditions you are living in. To be happy and to live a beautiful life, you must first train yourself to make the situations that you are in beautiful in some way. Look at your life through new eyes and see the beauty in every detail of this world. Your life will improve, I promise. I speak from experience.
  3. “A mother who radiates self-love and self-acceptance actually vaccinates her daughter against low self esteem.” – Naomi Wolf — I came across this one on Pinterest and I was so moved by it. I completely and wholeheartedly believe that this is true. I think that we often forget that children watch us so that they know how to act/things to say/etc. For example, I am always surprised when parents are somehow shocked that their toddler learned a cuss word. We cannot preach one thing but practice another. I believe that a mother who loves and accepts herself will no doubt have a daughter who also loves and accepts herself, by learning from her mother. THIS IS SO IMPORTANT!!!
  4. “If you see something beautiful in someone, speak it.” – Ruthie Lindsey — Because who doesn’t love hearing nice things about themselves? My love language is words of affirmation, so this one definitely is close to my heart. I feel love most deeply through kind words, and that is how I express love. Along with that, you never know what someone is going through. You complimenting their hair may be the only kind thing they hear today. Just go for it. I don’t know of any sane person who got mad about someone speaking kind words to them. Plus, if you have a hard time with making friends in a new setting, this is a great conversation starter!
  5. “If you have good thoughts, they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.” – Roald Dahl — Sometimes I think I don’t have a favorite quote but this is definitely it. Or at least top 3. Not only the message, but the way he words it, as well, makes this a beautiful quote. It’s self-explanatory so I won’t elaborate, but I love, love, love this.
  6. “She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile, even if she was sad. No, she wasn’t beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul. She is beautiful.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald — Again, self explanatory, but so incredibly beautiful. I pray that one day I am loved like this.

  7. “Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.” – Kurt Vonnegut — Gorgeous. I think there is a mindset among people today that you must be hard and tough and that we have to build walls up around us to protect ourselves, but I could not disagree more. I think that we have to go through pain and sadness and remain vulnerable to truly experience life. If we continue to shield ourselves, we will never feel anything. I would rather feel pain ten times over than never know happiness for one second.

 

Thank you for spending a little bit of your day, or night, with me. xoxo

My Favorite Quotes + Why

Prose – How to Fall in Love with a Stranger

I have not written creatively and successfully in so long. Needless to say, I am incredibly proud of what I have written.

DISCLAIMER: This is not true. The events are purely fiction. I would also like to add that it’s pretty long. So… just saying.

I sincerely hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you for spending a little bit of your day, or night, with me.

 

 

How to Fall in Love with a Stranger

Day 1

He looked like somebody who you would meet in a used bookstore. Or, more like someone who the main character of a teen rom-com movie would meet in a used bookstore… he was too good looking to meet in real life. But I didn’t meet him in a bookstore. I met him at school in the hallway. Except I didn’t meet him.

Having not met him, I still felt like I knew him after one shared glance in the hallway. The first time I saw him, jazz music played in my head and I imagined what a life with him would entail. I imagined coffee breath kisses in the morning while we listened to the news playing in the background while getting dressed for work that day. I imagined ramen noodle nights on a big, fluffy couch while watching a few hours’ worth of bad reality television. I imagined bathing our dog together in the bathtub of our small first home (we would have a golden doodle). But once our paths had crossed, the moment was gone and my future was back to being as uncertain as life was before.

I could not get him out of my head for the rest of the day.

 

Day 2

Our glance in the hallway was longer today. Or maybe it just felt longer. I didn’t imagine a life with him again, at least I tried not to. He has green eyes, maybe hazel. The color is hard to tell from a distance and behind his Clark Kent-esque glasses. I will update when I learn more. I still can’t stop thinking about him.

 

Day 3

I was sitting at a table in the lounge in between classes and he sat next to me. We didn’t speak. I don’t know his name, but I think his favorite color is blue. His headphones, his phone case, and his backpack are all blue. Different shades, of course. He’s not a “matchy-matchy” kind of guy. At least, I don’t think he is.

Also, his eyes are definitely green.

 

Day 4

We met again at our table from yesterday. Today, I joined him at the table instead of him joining me. I thought of maybe saying “hello” but something inside of me convinced myself not to. I ended up regretting that later on. He studied his textbook so attentively. I can never study like that, I get distracted too easily.

He doesn’t seem like the type of person to speak to someone first. To make matters worse, I am not that type of person either. He left the table before I did and headed to his next class. I left a few minutes after.

I found myself talking to God about him, before catching myself and then feeling silly about it. I do not even know his name, yet somehow I feel as if I am supposed to know him. This is the kind of problem I talked to God about. Why have I become borderline obsessed with someone I know nothing about?

I also found that having a crush is the closest thing to torture that someone can inflict on themselves. Anything reminds me of him, especially jazz.

 

Days 5, 6, and 7

The weekend was my hope for escape. My plan was to pop myself with a rubber band that I would keep around my wrist every time I caught myself thinking about him. After a few hours I thought my hand would fall clean off my wrist. Needless to say, my plan was foiled quickly.

As if the rubber band dilemma wasn’t enough, I also saw him shopping at Target on Friday. He was buying shampoo, but I was able to flee the scene before he saw me. I ended up regretting not saying “hi” at that moment. I wasn’t shopping for anything specific, not unlike most Target runs I go on, so I left the store to avoid running into him again. I ended up regretting this, too.

The rest of my weekend was filled with family outings, all the while imagining what it would be like if he was there with us. I have got to stop.

 

Day 8

If I had to die at eighteen, I would like my cause of death to be this green eyed boy.

 

Day 9

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Do you know what I mean?

 

Day 10

I think I learned his name. I won’t say it out loud or even allow myself to think it. I am afraid that if I know his name, this becomes real. And real things, for me, do not work out. Another boy, I’m assuming someone he knows, walked up to our table today, looked at me, then looked at him and said “Hey, *insert name that I won’t allow myself to think here*, did you do the homework for English?” In response, *insert name that I won’t allow myself to think here* said “Yeah. It wasn’t too hard either, if you use your textbook.” His friend (I use this term loosely) nodded, said something along the lines of “Oh okay, thanks man,” and walked away. Today was the first time I heard his voice. I want this to be the voice I wake up to and go to sleep to for the rest of my life.

 

Day 11

Today was my last chance to build up enough courage to finally speak to him before another long and agony-filled weekend. (The word “agony” is, of course, used for dramatic emphasis. You must remember, you are reading the thoughts of a teenage girl.) I walked into the room that our table calls home and he was not there. I sat down, played on my phone, picked at my split ends, tried to study for my test next week, all to no avail. He never showed up. I suddenly felt incredibly silly for feeling like I was stood-up in some way. I am over-reacting. Someone please give me a chill pill.

 

Days 12, 13, and 14

My weekend was average. No notes to add.

 

Day 15

Somehow, on this day, I convinced myself to skip all three classes. No updates on *insert name that I won’t allow myself to think here*. Regularly scheduled programming will resume on Tuesday, or whenever I feel like going to class next.

 

Day 16

Oh, what a day this one was. I hope you brought your popcorn because this one is a good one.

I walked into the lounge, and my hopes were not as high anymore. I began to feel more at-ease, less pressure to finally say something to this boy. I sat down at our table, and after a few minutes, he joined me. I looked up to greet him in our funny way of acting like the other doesn’t exist. This time, however, he smiled and said “Good morning”. I smile back and say “Hi”, but because it was the first word I said today, the word came out froggy and unclear. I clear my throat (very attractively, I’m sure… can you sense the sarcasm?) and I repeat myself. “Hi” I say again. At this point, I felt incredibly embarrassed, I pretended to study for a few minutes longer, and then I retreated to the bathroom until my next class. If there were a gold star to receive for speaking to strangers, I would not be a recipient, I can assure you.

 

Day 17

I did not go to the table today. I sat in my car until my class started, after a while I began to feel a little melodramatic about the whole situation. I decided that tomorrow I would talk to him. Let’s see how that goes, though.

 

Day 18

Okay, so I really did have big plans for today, I did. But… I chickened out. I didn’t say anything and neither did he. We are back to our regular “pretend like the other doesn’t exist” routine. Somehow, I find comfort in this. That’s a lie. I have been more nervous these past eighteen days than I have been in my entire eighteen years combined.

 

Days 19, 20, and 21

Surprise! My weekend was not noteworthy. Moving on.

 

Day 22

Today, I somehow mustered up enough confidence to smile at him before he sat down at our table. He, again, said “Good morning” and I actually said “Hi!” back and in a completely normal way. He said “Fancy seeing you here” and I didn’t catch his sarcasm at first because I was so caught up in the fact that we were actually acknowledging that the other existed. I lightly laughed once I caught the joke, followed by a “yeah”. Next time I see a shooting star, I’m wishing to be a better conversation starter.

 

Day 23

This morning, I actually said “Good morning” to him first. He quickly responded with “I feel like if we’re going to have a really quiet before-class meeting every morning, I should know your name.” I told him my name. He said “Well hello, my name is *insert name that I won’t allow myself to think here*”, except he didn’t actually say all of that, he actually told me his real name. It’s a nice name. Too bad I won’t allow myself to think it.

 

Day 24

Wednesdays are just hard in general. It was harder because I slept in and missed my first class, i.e. missed our “really quiet before-class meeting” too. I missed him in general, as well.

 

Day 25

This morning, I walked into the lounge and he was already sitting at our table with two coffees. As I approached the table, he said “Hey, I got you this coffee. I’d like to talk to you in less of an obligatorily polite way today, if that’s okay with you.” I nodded and sat down. I took a teeny tiny sip of the coffee he handed me. This felt a lot more like a dream than real life. In real life, this doesn’t happen to me. I remind myself that we have spent quite a few mornings at this table and that if he wasn’t, in some way, interested in me, he would have sat at one of the other twenty tables in the lounge. He looked at me while taking a long sip of his coffee before saying, “I don’t even like coffee. I just see you with it sometimes, so I thought it would be a nice gesture.” That made me want to laugh, but I held it in. I smiled a little and then said “And I suppose bringing one for yourself made it look like you didn’t just try and drug me by just bringing me a coffee for no particular reason other than to “talk to me”.” This made him laugh. He had such a nice laugh. The kind of laugh that I would want to hear as much as possible. The kind of laugh that made we want to make him laugh again. He responded with, “So you see my dilemma.” I liked his choice of vocabulary, he sounded like an adult. I also liked how he phrased his sentences.

I liked so many things about him. I could go on for a mile.

 

Days 26, 27, and 28

Why do I even include weekends anymore? Again, uneventful.

 

Day 29

I already was having trouble believing that this was actually happening to me. I am not the kind of girl that boys want to talk to first. I don’t know what kind of girl I am, but I am certain that I am not that kind. At least, I didn’t think I was. Today, he met me at our table and said my name. I looked up from my phone, and he had a coffee with my name written on it and a Dr. Pepper bottle, for him, I assumed. He sat down, faced me, and quickly said “I found myself missing your company over the weekend. It seems I have fallen in love with a complete stranger. Are you busy after class today?”

Was this really happening? To me? This was exactly the kind of things that I dreamt of happening. I had no idea that this stuff really happened to people. I told him no, that I was not busy. He invited me to accompany him to a trip to Sonic for lunch and to walk around Target with him. I said “That sounds great. Not far from what I usually do after school anyway. I suppose it would be nice to have someone with me.” He laughed and said that he would meet me back at our table at 12:15. I could not wait.

Day 30

More to come.

Prose – How to Fall in Love with a Stranger

Chatty Post???

Today, I have no main topic. No beautiful message you will receive upon reading this. No, today I just have a heavy heart and a lot of things to say. I have no idea what this post will end up being about, but I’m going with it. You know those days when your brain is just overflowing with thoughts and you just need to let it out? Well I thought I might as well make this into a blog post. Well, if I even end up posting this. This is more or less just for me to be able to organize my thoughts. However, usually when I need to just organize my thoughts, I speak out loud to God. Today, I’ve done that four times and somehow I still feel like I have no idea whats going on.

I believe that God gives you your greatest gifts when you least expect them. That sounds so cliche, but its true. He is with you at every moment, watching out for things that He knows that you need.

Today, while talking to God on my way to Target after school, I realized that God rescued me when I didn’t even ask Him to, when I didn’t even want Him to. I was given the amazing gift of God’s unconditional, eternal love and of His salvation without me even asking for His help. Some will say that I was saved, but I like the word “rescued” better. After realizing what an absolutely amazing gift I was given without even asking, I had a sudden realization, an “epiphany”, if you will. I thought “Who am I to ask for things from God, when He knows far better what I need?” My begging and whining to God will not speed up the plans that He has for me. Who am I to ask for things when I was given the most beautiful gift already, without even asking for it. This is proof that God gives to us when he knows we are ready and knows when we need it, whatever “it” may be.

I’ve been having an anxious feeling in my chest the past couple of days. I find that speaking out loud to God and listening to John Coltrane and Miles Davis are the only things that soothe me. I also find it increasingly harder for me to talk to God without crying. Today, I was 4 for 4. I am a weenie, but a weenie so in love with God.

I am so amazed that we have a Father who takes care of His children in all times. “I am not skilled to understand what God has willed, what God has planned.” I know nothing compared to what He does. How can I fear when He knows EVERYTHING? He has had every single detail of my life planned out since before I was born. “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5 

I just read over this post and I noticed that it doesn’t really make much sense. I don’t even care that much though. I needed to write this down even if nobody reads this. Thank you for spending a little bit of your day, or night, with me. God bless

Chatty Post???

Makeup Products I Use

I am so excited to make this post!! I use a combination of high end and drug store products to create a pretty and affordable everyday makeup look!

 
I start off by moisturizing my face and I use my old trusty tub of Cetaphil moisturizer that seems to never run out. Really, I swear this jar is bottomless haha. This is available like everywhere. I get mine at either Target or Walmart. (Price – $10.93)Image result for cetaphil moisturizer

Next, I prime my skin with the L’Oreal Magic Lumi primer. This gives my dull, dry skin a subtle glow and I am obsessed with it. I used to think primer was a gimmick until I ran out of this primer and had to apply my makeup without it for a couple days. The difference is huge! If you have dry skin, I definitely recommend this primer!! (Price – $12.29)L'Oreal Paris Magic Lumi Primer

 

 
I do my eyebrows next, and I know this is like not normal but it makes sense in a second. I use the Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Pomade in the shade “Chocolate”. I actually have always used the shade “Dark Brown” but when I went to Ulta, they were completely out of my color, so I picked up “Chocolate” and it looked identical. The only difference I can notice is that “Chocolate” is a little tiny bit more red than “Dark Brown”, but it works fine. I swear by this product and I have been using it since I have been doing my makeup and I will never use anything else on my brows!! (Price – $18)Image result for abh dipbrow

 
After brows, I go in and carve my brows out with concealer. For this concealer, I use the NYX  Full Coverage Concealer Jar. I honestly probably use a different shade every time I run out, I just grab whichever one looks pretty light. I go in heavy with the concealer because it gets covered by foundation in the next step anyway. Carving your brows fixes any mistakes you made with your brows and cleans up any places where you may have gone out of line or drew on a little too thick. This also helps to conceal any little eyebrow hairs that start to grow back. This stuff works amazing and its super cheap! I recommend this to anyone looking for a cream concealer. (Price – $2.43)

 
Next I apply foundation. I use the Maybelline Better Skin foundation in the shade “Medium Beige”. I have used high end foundations that I loved, but it justgot way too expensive so I went on the hunt for a good drug store foundation and my best friend recommended this one. I absolutely love everything about this stuff. It blends easy, it has awesome coverage, it doesn’t oxidize, it looks very natural and beautiful, and it feels light weight. This is honestly everything I could have wished for in a foundation. I have a yellow undertone and this honestly matches me perfectly. I am obsessed! I definitely recommend for anyone who has dry skin. I like to apply with a foundation brush and then dab over with a damp beauty sponge to get the smoothest finish and to remove excess. (Price – $11.99)Image result for maybelline better skin

 
My next step is concealer, but I use a the Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Concealer instead of the NYX one. This one, I find, blends smoother and has a much more light weight feel than the NYX one. If I use the NYX concealer under my eyes, my makeup looks cakey and my concealer would have already creased after just a few hours. This concealer is awesome! I used to use the Too Faced Born This Way concealer, but when I ran out I tried this one because it is much cheaper, and I love it. I do not see myself purchasing a high end concealer in the future. I apply with the applicator (under my eyes, on my chin, forehead, and down the bridge of my nose) then I blend it out with a damp beauty sponge. (Price – $6.79)

 
Next, I bake using the Coty Airspun powder. I actually don’t use the translucent powder, but the shade “Naturally Neutral”, its still very light but it blends into my foundation better and I just like a little bit of color in my loose powder, but that’s just personal preference.  I apply the powder (a lot!!!) with a damp beauty sponge everywhere that I put the concealer and I leave the bake for a few minutes. I also dip my powder brush into the powder and apply a layer over the rest of my face that isn’t being baked. I find that a thin layer of the loose powder over my foundation allows for a much easier bronzer application. (Price – $7.99)Image result for coty airspun powder

 
I don’t use eyeshadow everyday, but when I do I use the Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance palette. I leave my under eyes baking while I apply my eye makeup and I brush off the rest of my face loose powder. For a basic look, I use the shades “Warm Taupe” and “Raw Sienna” in my crease, then I go in with “Cyprus Umber” and a little bit of “Red Ochre” in the outer corner of my eyes and on the bottom lash line. For a little bit of extra oomph, I add “Primavera” in the inner corner to the middle of my eyelid. (Price – $42)

 
The next product I use is bronzer. Before I apply, I wipe off my bake and then go in with my bronzer. I have used the Too Faced Cocoa Contour palette as well as the Too Faced Dark Cocoa bronzer. My single bronzer cracked and I threw it away, and now I’ve hit pan on this palette, so I ordered the Benefit Hoola bronzer and I am so super excited to try it out and let y’all know how I like it! (Price – $42)Image result for too faced contour

 
After I apply my bronzer, I add some blush. I use Tarte’s Amazonian Clay blush in the shade “Risque”. This blush is a peachy/pinky blush and I love it so much. I have used this faithfully for a year and a half and I love it so much. This is the blush shade of my dreams and I cannot even imagine using a different blush.   (Price – $29)

 

 

 
Next, I use mascara. You may have noticed that I didn’t talk about eyeliner and that’s because I don’t wear any, haha. I have small, hooded eyes so when I wear eyeliner, it makes my eyes appear smaller and the eyeliner transfers to my eyelid and it just looks like a hot mess. I do love this mascara, though. It makes my lashes look amazing without clumping. The only thing that I don’t absolutely love about this product, however, is that it is very wet and takes a little while to dry. WARNING: Do not sneeze within a few minutes of applying. I speak from experience. (Price – $23)Image result for mascara better than sex

 
Next step is highlighter. I don’t like a crazy, dramatic glow, but rather a more subtle, soft, and natural one. I also really don’t like the look of a white highlighter. I tend to use gold or pink ones. My main go-to highlighters are the Laura Geller Baked Gelato Swirl Illuminator in the shade “Gilded Honey”. I love this shade because its almost the same as my skin, so it just adds a nice glow to my skin without being so dramatic. My next one is the e.l.f Baked Highlighter in the shade “Blush Gems”. This product has a pinkish glow and is very pretty on the skin. The only thing about that highlighter is that when you buy it, you have to scratch off the first layer with your fingernail to get a good result. (Prices – Laura Geller: $26, e.l.f.: $3.99)highlighters
My last and final (and favorite) step is lipstick!!!! I tend to reach for liquid lipsticks because of the application and matte finish. My go-to lipstick is the NYX Lip Lingerie in shade “Exotic”. It’s so hard to find nudes that look flattering on my skin tone and this one is so beautiful even though its not actually considered a “nude” in comparison to the other “nudes”. I do wear red lips a lot (like a lot, a lot) and whenever I do I always use the Too Faced Melted Matte liquid lipstick in the shade “Lady Balls”. The Too Faced formula is my absolute #1 favorite in the whole world ever. The only problem is that the shade range is very slim and the only shades from them that I can wear are “Lady Balls” and “Bend and Snap”. I also love Kylie Cosmetics liquid lips, but I tend not to order much from them because I hate ordering makeup and I would much rather buy in store than online. (Prices – NYX: $7, Too Faced: $21)Image result for nyx lip lingerie exoticImage result for too faced lady balls

 

 

 

Total for full face: $239.42

I love makeup and I love talking about beauty so if you have any questions about any products mentioned, please feel free to comment or tweet or dm me about them! I’m also always up for new suggestions so please leave me some recommendations!! Thank you so much for spending a little bit of your day, or night, with me.

 

Makeup Products I Use

Dear Mama

The loveliest masterpiece of the heart of God is the heart of a mother.
St. Therese of Lisieux

You are the first person I ever met. You will forever be my first best friend. You were probably the first person I ever loved as well, and that is because you loved me first. I am so blessed to have you by my side throughout my life. You inspired my love of reality television, animals, home decor, and Jesus. You dressed me for school and taught me about fashion. You painted my nails, brushed my hair, and played Barbies with me. You brought me to dance, brought me to school, and all the way you have brought me to become the young woman that I am today.

From the beginning, you instilled important values into me. You taught me to be kind to everyone. Then, when my feelings got hurt, you taught me that not everyone has the same heart as me. You wiped my tears and showed me how to get right back up when life knocks you down. You have been my biggest supporter and I am so thankful for your never ending support and encouragement in any venture I chose to take part in over the years. You have allowed me to be independent and make my own choices with your guidance and you have never let me go astray.

I am lucky to have you as a mother. You are strong, hard-working, kind, smart, and beautiful inside and out. You have taught me to always be generous, headstrong, creative, and to always be my true, authentic self. Days with you are days of endless fun and laughter. You make any situation brighter just by being yourself. You have taught me how to be a friend, just by being a friend to me. I will forever cherish eating onion rings from Sonic with you before dance, watching Big Brother religiously, and the week one summer in which you and I rented and watched all the Harry Potter movies back to back. Thank you for always listening to me when I have so much on my mind. Thank you for calming me down when I get overwhelmed. Thank you for being my own personal cheerleader when I am in desperate need of some encouragement.

Mama – “You are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful person I have ever known – and even that is an understatement.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald

I love you so so so much, Mama. I love who I am today, and I am who I am because of you.

 

You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. Psalm 139:13

For where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God my God. Ruth 1:16-17

Her children rise up and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praises her. Proverbs 31:2

 

Dear Mama

Why I Don’t Fear Missing Out

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be. – Unknown

I’m sure we have all had that feeling of “Did I miss my chance?” I used to fear that my being shy would force me to miss out on something, opportunities, friendships, and mostly: relationships. After growing closer to God and learning more about His word, I do not fear missing out on anything.

I heard the phrase “The One That Got Away” for the first time when I was in middle school. For a few years I feared that I would one day have my own “one that got away”. I do not fear that at all anymore. I know now that God doesn’t allow the real “one” that He has always had planned for you get away. No, the one God has for you may exit your life and then come back, but if the person you believe to be “the one” makes a permanent exit from your life, they are not “the one” made for you by God. While this may seem hard to hear, I can assure you that if you think this person was perfect for you, the actual “one” is better for you than you could ever have dreamed of.

Likewise, in anything, there is no reason to fear missing out on something. God knows your plan and He is watching carefully while keeping you right on track. Everything is going exactly as He is wanting it to. If you feel like you missed out on an opportunity, find peace in knowing that it was simply not in God’s plan for you.

In short, I do not believe in the phrase, “the one that got away”. There is no such thing. God will not allow this to happen. His plan is perfect and so is His timing. Be patient. There is a reason for everything.

The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. Proverbs 16:9

 

Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him.” Genesis 2:18

Seek and read from the book of the Lord: Not one of these shall be missing; none shall be without her mate. For the mouth of the Lord has commanded, and his Spirit has gathered them. Isaiah 34:16

 

Why I Don’t Fear Missing Out