This past week was something I never thought I would do. I became so dependent on makeup that I never thought I could ever go out without it. My goal for forcing myself to go one full week without any makeup whatsoever was to be able to 1. appreciate my natural God-given beauty and not derive all self-worth in a painted face and 2. to eventually become comfortable enough in my own skin to make going without makeup a more common thing for me. I found that I was wearing makeup because I felt like I had to and not because I wanted to.
On top of this challenge in itself, I also challenged myself to 5 mini-challenges this week as well.
Challenge 1: SUCCESS! I used to feel like I was never fully “ready” for the day if I didn’t have my makeup done. I wanted this week to show me that I can still dress up like I like to but I don’t have to wear a full face (or any makeup at all) to be ready for the day.
Challenge 2: SUCCESS! I was so terrified to do this and I thought that I would put this off until the last day of the challenge, but I surprised myself and did it pretty early on! I got a lot of positive feedback and kind words which really gave me the boost I needed to get through the week with confidence. I am so thankful for all of the positivity and kindness, more than I can express.
Challenge 3: SUCCESS! I feared that I would become a recluse this week. I was scared that I would be hesitant to leave the house as often as I usually do because I wouldn’t be wearing any makeup. This was not true!! I left the house just as often as I would on a regular week and did not for a second allow my lack of makeup rule my life.
Challenge 4: SUCCESS! I was so afraid that when I would see people I know or meet new people that they would think I was either sick or just don’t care about my appearance enough to wear makeup — as twisted and backwards as that sounds. This week taught me that people are not nearly as critical of me as I am of myself. I was never treated differently and no one in my everyday life ever even said anything or noticed unless I had told them about it before. My own mom didn’t even notice until I told her on my last day of no makeup that I hadn’t worn it in a week.
Challenge 5: SUCCESS! This is something that actually came on in about the middle of the week. I struggle a lot with my self-confidence and self-image and I am very critical of myself and I just assume that everyone else is too. This week I learned that that is definitely not true. I also have come to like my bare face just as much as my face when its covered in makeup.
This week was a blessing, for sure. I learned so much about myself and about self-love and I am so thankful for the confidence that I gained during this past week. From now on, I will only wear makeup when I really want to and not everyday because I feel like I have to. I will say, I did really miss putting on makeup every morning because I find that very fun and therapeutic. However, on Friday when I wore makeup again, I actually missed being bare faced. It was so nice to be able to rub my eyes, itch my nose, and not have to worry about reapplying lipstick.
The outcomes of this week have been even greater than the outcomes that I hoped would come of this experiment. I said this in my last post, but if you are struggling with self confidence or if you feel like you are wearing makeup because you have to and not because you want to, just try this out. I am so happy that I forced myself to try this out. This definitely changed my outlook on makeup. As always, thank you for spending a little bit of your day, or night, with me. xoxo